Kinda Culty...

I am a survivor of spiritual and narcissistic abuse. I was raised within a family dynamic of two Christian based cultic practices. As an adult I managed to get involved with a very dangerous international Japanese Buddhist cult. I was deeply indoctrinated for nearly 13 years. It's philosophy wore it's members down with its Japanese war based jargon and deeply politically conservative belief system fine-tuned and led by a narcissistic financial tycoon and criminal masking as a spiritual guru. I suffered extreme spiritual narcissistic abuse, gaslighting and lots of crazy making from many of the cult's fellow members and leaders. I left two years ago and formally resigned last May.

It is quite common for those of us who are raised within a cult that we often find ourselves where we began. I've always used my song writing to process many life challenges. I enjoy a tongue and cheek humorous approach to lyric writing especially when the subject matter is heavy at heart. I really had great fun taking the piss at many of the trends in spiritual practices, many of which I have personal experience of falling victim to.

My life has completely opened up and has begun to flourish since I got out. I'm currently training to become a certified equine assisted therapy practitioner and my creativity is super abundant with lots of creative projects and opportunities that have presented themselves recently. My interpersonal relationships are thriving and are based on mutual admiration and respect. I'm finding joy and laughter in being able to appreciate the mundanity in everyday tasks. And I am finally free to embrace my own ideas and truly think for myself by trusting my own wisdom.

I dedicate this song to all survivors of narcissistic and cultic spiritual abuse.

I'm in a place where I can finally laugh about the experience. I hope the lyrics will put a smile on your faces. A big Congratulations to all survivors out there for finding the courage to leave.

~Taj